6 Simple Tips For Managing Your Diabetes While Swimming

6 Simple Tips For Managing Your Diabetes While Swimming

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For most people summer is a time when you are outside, more active, and spending a lot of time in the water. With vacations, kids being home from school, and increasing temperatures, going to the pool or the beach are common for most people. Normal routines are often thrown out the window during summer, so how can you keep your diabetes in control while you are swimming? By following these 6 easy steps, I will show you how you can still enjoy your time in the water while keeping your blood sugars in range. 

  1. Stay Hydrated: Remember those of us with type 1 diabetes are more prone to dehydration which can lead to DKA. And who wants to spend their “vacation” in the hospital? With temperatures soaring and more time spent outdoors, it is important to be sure you are drinking adequate amounts of water. The amount of water needed will depend on your weight and health conditions, so check with your doctor for his or her recommendations. Remember if you feel thirsty or like your mouth is dry, you are already dehydrated. 

  2. Never Go Swimming Alone: Although this rule should go for pretty much everyone, for those of us with diabetes it is even more important. If you are alone and your blood sugar drops you are in big trouble. It is recommended you always have on a medical alert bracelet and that someone you know is with you. 

  3. Monitor Your Sugar Often: Swimming is a very strenuous activity that uses almost all of your muscle groups. It is very important to check your blood sugar often while you are swimming to prevent hypoglycemia. If you have a sensor remember it will not read through the water, so please get out every hour and give it a chance to read your glucose before you get back in. 

  4. Keep Your Insulin Protected: Heat can cause your insulin to break down and become less effective. Make sure when you are outside in the heat, you keep your insulin somewhere cool. If you have an insulin pump, be sure your pump is not left sitting out in the sun for long periods of time. Be sure to monitor your sugars closely and if needed, change out your cartridge after a day in the sun.

  5. Anchor those pumps and CGM’s well: Pumps and CGMs are great but we all know during the hot humid and wet summer months, we can have issues with keeping them attached. Be sure to anchor your devices with extra tape and covers as needed to ensure you do not get an interruption in your insulin delivery. When you go swimming it is recommended that you take your pump off, but remember you have no basal with the pump so be sure to reattach at least once every 2 hours to deliver that missed basal amount. 

  6. Keep Your Feet Safe: Always wear some sort of shoe while walking around at the beach or pool, unless you are in the water. Remember to keep your feet safe, free from burns from walking on hot pavement, and free from injury (stepping on glass or broken shells). 




The Diabetes-Butterfly Relationship

The Diabetes-Butterfly Relationship


Lately, I have been thinking a lot about butterflies. I am sure you are all wondering what does this have to do with diabetes? LOL.  To me butterflies represent change, there is even an old saying “Without change there would be no butterflies”. As we all know, butterflies start out as a caterpillar. A bug, not something most people yearn to have, much like diabetes right?  I have never seen a line of people standing around waiting to get diabetes. But, we all know the potential of a caterpillar, the potential it has to one day become a beautiful butterfly.  Just like a caterpillar becoming a butterfly, we can choose to change how we see our diabetes from an ugly caterpillar to a beautiful butterfly. 

When we are first diagnosed with diabetes, I think we all feel a little bit like a caterpillar. We know the road ahead is long and it is going to take hard work and we are going to have to be aware of everything around us, food, exercise, stress and all the other things that affect our blood sugars. We need to be prepared and willing to learn and grow and work hard. Our goal, like a butterfly’s  is to one day be able to sail through life in a state of beauty and peacefulness. (I know it's easier said than done, right?)  But in the end, butterflies are so much freer and more sought after than a caterpillar. I am sure if butterflies could talk, they would say it was worth all of the hard work, planning and preparation they had to put into their transformation. 

For most people when they are first diagnosed with diabetes, it was a shock. Hearing those words “you have diabetes” probably sent a wave of fear through your body.  It is a scary word, isn’t it? “Die-a-beat-ez” (I know I spelled it wrong but trying to show you phonetically how scary it is- it has the word die and beat in it). Although I have heard some people who say “die-a-beat-us” (which is even worse!). So how are we supposed to embrace this disease when the name alone is terrifying? How do we look at the long and winding road ahead of us with all of those obstacles and somehow find peace? Is it even possible to do so?

I am here to assure you that it is. Yes, diabetes is hard, but it is not impossible. I have lived with diabetes now for 35 years. I have been blessed with 2 amazingly wonderful children (something that for a few years I did not think would be possible). Having diabetes has helped to shape me into the person I am today. Without diabetes, I would probably not be in the nursing profession. Without diabetes, I would probably be a bigger, unhealthier version of myself (see carb counting is not all bad, LOL). As I have pondered how diabetes has changed me personally,  I can say with 100% assureity that it has helped me to be stronger and healthier. I see so many other people out there, who suffer from diabetes, who are not doing as well. My dad actually asked me one day why I think I am doing so well while others are not. To me the answer is easy. I have made peace with diabetes and with the fact that it will be with me for my entire life. I could feel sorry for myself and resent it, or I can choose to find peace with it. Peace and happiness are choices we can make. Even in the worst-case scenario, we have a choice whether to feel happy or sad. We can be accepting or angry. We can find joy or be full of hate. 

Yes diabetes is hard and yes it takes work to be successful. But my diabetes does not run my life. It does not rob me of joy. It does not inhibit me from doing anything I want to do. There are days it makes me mad and days where I wish I did not have to “do diabetes”. Overall, though, I can say that I actually am thankful that I have diabetes. I see it as a gift, I know that is a crazy idea, who would ever see a chronic illness as a gift?. It is a huge challenge in my life, but  I am able to handle it. A challenge that makes me more resilient and kinder and more loving towards others. I have worked really hard to get to where I am today in regards to my diabetes. I have studied it, I have read so much about it. I have listened to the advice of others. I have listened to my body. I have tried so many things to make my life as easy as  I can (pumps, CGMs, closed-loop systems, etc). I know that I can do this and so can you. Don’t let another day go by stuck in a cocoon waiting to start your  new life, a life of freedom and acceptance.  Let me help you to break free from those ropes that are keeping you tied down, and teach you  to fly. I promise it will be worth it to learn to spread your CGM wearing wings and fly.


The Process of Transformation

The Process of Transformation

Have you ever felt like you were stuck in a holding pattern in your life? Where you know where you want to go, but you are just not sure exactly how to get there? You can’t decide if you should fly or drive or take a train. You aren’t sure when to leave to avoid traffic or what time of year to make your journey? It is often so hard to pick and choose where to go. We are often taught if we have faith that as we begin to make choices we will be guided. God won’t make decisions for us, we are told we must study it out in our mind and decide and then ask if it is right. We are told we will know as the choices are made if they are going to move us in the right direction. Having faith is hard. We don’t ever really know where our journey will take us. We just know as we go, if we follow our hearts, we will end up at some point, where we are meant to go. I know eventually, things will make sense. I will look back one day and be like “ooohhhh, now I get it”. 

As a self-proclaimed control freak, though, this is the hardest part for me. Trusting in an unseen force to guide me along my path. Sometimes being in the middle of an unclear journey is tough. Especially when you feel like you're making that journey on your own. Lately, the whole world seems this way. To me, the world seems to focus on the negative, and COVID has definitely made us feel alone and isolated. I wish it was easier to see the good I have in my life, there is plenty of it if I remember to take the time to look. I wish it was more natural to focus on the good instead of focusing on the bad. I wish it was easier to see all that I have rather than what I don’t have, but wish I did. I think it is human nature that makes us feel insecure and insignificant. I have been trying to retrain my mind. To see the good and to ignore the bad feelings, that are 99% of the time simply feelings, that have no actual basis to them. Caring what other people think of me, or how they see me. This will never make me a better person. Worrying about how having diabetes makes me different than most people. When I stop and think about it, these thoughts always come down to the material, unimportant things. Instead, I know I need to focus on being a better person, loving those around me near and far, and being kinder to everyone. Trying to not judge those around me, those who do things differently than I do. Realizing they are no more right than I am, we are each on our own individual journey, with our own individual paths to take. My diabetes journey is exactly that my journey, no yours, not his or hers, it is mine. I need to find a way, like we all do, to fit my diabetes into my life. So I can be the best version of me that I can be. 

Transformation is an amazing process, especially when you can see the physical changes that are being made. It tends to be a little bit harder when you can’t see those changes. Take my latest DIY project. I needed a file cabinet, so I decided to look for one. Found one I love that was super cute and “my style” online. The only problem was, it was $300. Now being in a state of unemployment at the moment, I knew rationally spending $300 on a file cabinet was stupid and unnecessary. I had it in my cart but could not bring myself to pay for it. Then I mentioned it to my father. He told me he had extra file cabinets in the garage, and told me he would bring me over the one that had been my Nan’s. He brought it over a few days later, and it was hideous. An ugly brown metal monster with dents and some rust. I turned to Pinterest to see if I could do anything with this ugly eyesore and I found a few ideas. I set to work on spray painting it. My first plan was unsuccessful as the spray paint dripped and looked terrible. So I switched gears and bought a different type of paint. It started to shape up and over the process of trial and error and a week’s time, I created a beautiful new file cabinet. I actually love it. Watching it come together step by step was amazing. I wished at times it would come along faster and just be done but I enjoyed following the steps and in the end, the final product was beautiful. I added my own flair and style to the cabinet to make it different from the examples I had seen on Pinterest. It took work and it took some trial and error and a variety of ideas to come down to the final product. It still has some dents and dings but it is pretty to look at and functional. I have to say I love it. It looks like me, imperfect but beautiful in its own way. 

  I started thinking how I wish our personal transformations were this easy to see. That we could step back, while in the middle of our journeys and look at what we are creating. That we could see our personages, our spirits growing and changing and turning into something beautiful. Unfortunately, we can’t see it from outside, but I believe we can feel it in our hearts and in our minds. I can see my career as a nurse practitioner turning into something more amazing, something where I can feel like I am making a difference in other people's lives. When it comes to taking care of diabetes, it is a personal journey, but it is not one we need to do alone. I would love to help each one of you find a way, through trial and error, to make your diabetes fit into your life. To help you find peace with it, rather than constantly fighting against it. It is not something I think any of us would have chosen to take on if we were given that choice, but we weren’t. We all do have to take it on and live with it each and every day, and I know that we can all find peace and happiness as we do. I would love to hear how each one of you is dealing with your diabetes and how you think you are doing. What areas have you been struggling with? Where have you had success?


Changing with Purpose

How many times in your life have you decided you needed a change? Have you ever found yourself stuck in a rut and you think, something really needs to change, to get me out of this place? I am sure we all have had these moments at one time or another. Realizing that what you are doing or how you are doing it is no longer working. We as humans are known to constantly be surveying our surroundings and our lives for ways to be more efficient. There are so many industries out there in the world that feed into this desire to change. Diet and fitness commercials, websites and coaches. Home improvements and DIY shows and blogs. And ads for schools and specialty training. I believe it is human nature to want to be better. 

Change is something not everyone looks forward to. It can be difficult to change. There are changes we choose to go after, and then there are changes that are thrust upon us, often without our wanting them. Whether it is a lost job, spousal disharmony, unruly children or a challenging physical or emotional ailment, these unexpected changes are often very difficult to accept let alone embrace with open arms. So, how can we make change become smoother and easier to handle, no matter what the cause of that change is? We need to build new habits to ensure these changes lead to effective outcomes. 

When someone is first diagnosed with diabetes, it can be a shock on many levels. Diabetes is a scary word. Most people know someone who has diabetes and they have seen or heard about their struggles with it. Diabetes is a chronic, lifelong illness that can have an impact on your future health. It is a disease that is with you 24 hours a day, 7 days a week and if not properly treated, it can lead to serious complications. I don’t know of anyone who was diagnosed with diabetes who welcomed it into their life with open arms. Diabetes is a disease that requires a lot of change to one's lifestyle. So, why do some people who have diabetes seem to do so well with it and others seem to struggle every single day with it? Do you honestly think it is a “luck of the draw” as to whether or not these changes are easy for you to make?

I think those that do well with their diabetes do so based on the habits they are able to build over the years. New habits are created by practicing and reassessing, building upon experiences and constantly adapting. Often it involves trial and error to find a way that works for the individual. For someone with diabetes they could check their blood sugars and take their insulin every day and yet still never see improvement in their blood sugars. Why is that? They are doing what they were told right? Although they are doing what they were told to do, there are pieces missing. Like someone who is a sprinter, who wakes up every day at 6 am to run until he is tired. He could do this day in and day out and never really see a change in his running times. Why? Because simply doing something repeatedly does not mean you will improve. Running 100m over and over again without changing anything about how you run will never make you a better runner. Just like checking your sugars 6 times a day and taking your insulin the same every day will never make you sugars better. When a change is wanted, we can’t expect to see that change occur from doing the same thing over and over again. In order to see improvements, we need to try new ways to tackle the situation we are facing. 

Lets go back to the runner, if he wants to improve his race time, he needs to focus on the different aspects of running. How is he pumping his arms? How does he hold his head? How does he exit the starting blocks? How is his stride? How is his breathing? These are all different parts to running. Identifying which part needs work can make all the difference in the world. Just like with diabetes, checking you sugars and taking insulin are great but if you can’t assess what you are doing and look for ways to make it better you will never see a change in your blood sugar readings. Taking 5 units of humalog for every meal you eat, will often not give you optimal blood sugars. You need to look at how much you are eating and what time of day you're eating and how active you are before and after you eat.  You need to look at what time you take your insulin related to when you eat and you need to adjust your dose based on what your current blood sugar is. It takes reassessment and change to get to better blood glucose control. 

So how can we set new habits that will improve our overall blood glucose readings? Well first we need to identify what it is you are trying to accomplish. Is your end goal to have better blood sugars or to have less fluctuations in your blood sugars? Knowing what you want to achieve will help you to do this. It will take some self evaluation and some trial and error but knowing what you are hoping to accomplish will help you to set new habits that are effective 

Next you have to break down the new habit you want to build into parts. Knowing all the pieces that will make up that new habit is essential to your success. For example if you want to get in to work earlier, you might have to look at what you do the night before? You may need to take steps the night before to help you get to the goal of getting to work earlier. (Go to bed earlier, lay out your clothes, pack you lunch). As for improving your blood sugars, you need to think about what you know affects your blood sugars and then make whatever changes you can to eliminate them. Timing of the insulin dose, proper carbohydrate counting, exercise, and so on. 

Step 3 is to create physical cues to remind you. This sounds corny but it will help you to achieve your goals. If you leave notes around to remind you of what you are trying to accomplish you will have more success at doing it. You will be surprised to see how effective this can be. Leave a note on your fridge reminding you to check your sugar before you eat. Leaving reminders for yourself will help you to build the new habits you are trying to build. 

Step 4 is to tell someone what your goals are. If you have a support system, you are more likely to accomplish your goal. Have someone who you can count on to support you as well as hold you accountable for following through with building these new habits. Studies have shown couples who exercise together are significantly more consistent with completing their goals then those who do it alone. 

And the final step is to identify why you want to create the new habit. If you write down your motivation for setting the goal and have it visible to you,  it will be a constant reminder to you of why you are trying to change. Knowing that you want to have better blood sugars because you want to live a long and healthy life so you are there for your children and your grandchildren. Well, that is a hugely motivating factor to help you succeed. Really take some time to figure out why you are really trying to build a new habit, what are you wanting to accomplish in the long run? 

If you are persistent in building these new habits step by step, you will be surprised by how easily you are able to accomplish your goals. Without building these new habits, change will not occur. You will very easily slide back into the way you were doing things if you do not work at building something new. So, I challenge you each to think of 1 goal you want to accomplish this month and think about what habits you need to build to make that goal a reality. 


A New Year, A New You

New Year’s is a time off change, or at least a time when most of us hope for change. New Year’s is a celebration of the end of one year and the beginning of another year. The New Year’s resolution is a time honored tradition to set goals for things you want to accomplish within that new year. I have read a lot of mixed reviews regarding setting New Year resolutions, but I still look forward to setting mine each year. Many people view New Years resolutions as a way to set yourself up for failure. I sometimes think our New Year's resolutions are a bit lofty, it's like imagining the most perfect possible life, and then giving up because it does not happen fast enough. Sadly, we as a society are becoming more and more impatient and less willing to put in the work to make change happen.  Change is not easy, and it takes work to change. Change, however, is inevitable and necessary to become better. 

I have always loved butterflies. They are so pretty and I love watching them flutter from flower to flower. They seem like they are so free and peaceful and like they don't have a care in the world. It makes my day when I see a butterfly out in nature and I am so thankful for all of the beautiful butterflies I see here in Florida. Butterflies have always symbolized change to me. We all know butterflies start out as a caterpillar, not the most magnificent creature in the world, but with some hard work and some proper timing they become the beautiful creatures we see fluttering around. Sometimes it takes days for a butterfly to break free from its cocoon, it takes a lot of hard work, blood, sweat and even tears. But when they finally bust out and dry those wings and feel the wind blowing through them as they take flight, that must be an amazing feeling. Where it would once take them a very long time to get from point A to point B, they can now fly there in an instant. They are now beautiful and they can see the whole world from a totally different point of view. They have changed tremendously and worked very hard to make that change happen. 

World famous author and poet Maya Angelou has quoted, “without change there would be no butterflies”. I love this saying because change is inevitable. We are human and we are therefore forever evolving and changing. As we move throughout our lives, we learn and we change based on what we have learned. Each and every day we will do at least one thing different then we have done before. I for one love knowing that I can change tomorrow whatever did not go well today. A stagnant life is a boring life, in my opinion. Could you imagine how awful it would be to have everything be exactly the same day after day, month after month, year after year? Have you ever seen the movie Groundhog’s Day? That movie terrifies me to wake up every single day trapped in an endless cycle of repetition. I personally am always reassessing my life and looking for ways to improve it. Whether it be with my job, or with my family or with how my body looks or functions. There is always room for improvement and although changing is not always easy, I realize it is necessary for growth. And who doesn’t like growing? (Ok well not necessarily growing in pants size, but in other areas lol). In all seriousness though, change is an important part of life. We need to change to become better. 

Over the last several years, I have become more and more disheartened with the medical field. I have felt like as a healthcare provider, I am not given an adequate amount of time to really help those patients in my care. I want to give people more hope and more attention and more motivation than the 20 minute appointment, once every 3 months allows for. Most of my experiences have shown me that medicine has become more of a money making industry then one of caring for and helping people. I don’t want to feel like I have to rush through my patient visits just to see more today than I saw yesterday. I don’t want to use a one solution approach to everyone, when people are all different. I want to help each patient as an individual, to find a way for them to accept and embrace their disease that works for them and their lifestyle. 

Due to some COVID inspired career changes that happened throughout 2020 I have decided to make some changes to my life. Although it is a bit scary to me, I am ready to start 2021 with a new career. One where I am my own boss. Where I can spend the time needed to help people with diabetes find a way to take care of their diabetes that works for them. A way for them to take control of not only their diabetes but also their lives. A way to help this disease fit into their lives no matter what that looks like. I will help them to no longer see diabetes as a huge burden that holds them back from accomplishing their dreams. My goal is to help those people suffering from diabetes to find peace in their lives.  So my friends, here’s to 2021 and to the new beginnings and the big changes ahead. May you each find a way to “choose happy” this year and know I am here to help in any way I can. Remember “without change there would be no butterflies”, so let’s all fly towards something new. 


Burnout

Have you ever heard of burnout? Apparently, the definition of burnout is physical or mental collapse caused by overwork or stress. The world right now is in turmoil. Between the COVID-19 outbreak and the quarantine and the mandatory face masks and racial injustices and elections, I am pretty sure we are all feeling a little bit burned out right now in general. Usually, people relate burnout to work stress or lifes stress like above, but it can also be related to diabetes care. Diabetes is after all a chronic illness. Meaning long term, meaning it doesn't go away. It doesn’t have periods of remission or times when it is inactive, it is always with us. We can't have a day off from diabetes. I mean we can pretend we don't have it and even act like we don't (skip finger sticks and shots and eat whatever we want), but it always comes back to haunt us. It simply is a life long, chronic illness that requires daily attention and daily actions. 

         It's no wonder to me that diabetes burnout is a seriously underdiagnosed and undertreated condition. I mean do normal people even realize how draining it is to be a type 1 diabetic?  To have to measure and weigh and think about everything you eat and timing the insulin just right. The need to constantly monitor sugars and never leaving home without your suitcase full of supplies for every imaginable issue (too much insulin, not enough insulin, forgetting your pen or a pump site coming out or stress or hormones), literally everything affects our sugars so we have to be prepared for any and everything. 

It oftentimes seems to me that those in the medical field really do not understand diabetes. They see us often as their problem patients. The ones who ruin their perfect ideals because we don’t follow the rules. They have no idea how hard living with type 1 diabetes truly is. They simply look at it from a scientific standpoint. Lack of insulin lets give insulin and it will all be perfect. But that is not true As I said above everything affects blood sugars. Even if we did the same thing day after day and took the exact same insulin at the exact same time and ate the exact same thing our sugars will never ever be perfect. Not to mention that whole being human thing. You know how none of us are perfect (sorry to break it you but nobody is perfect). There is no such thing as a perfect diabetic. Human nature is to be flawed and to make mistakes. So add this to the “everything” affects your blood sugar and I present you with diabetes burnout. 

How do you know when you are feeling truly burned out? Well, the symptoms of burnout are more than just feeling overwhelmed or tired. They include emotional exhaustion, social withdrawal, the decline in activity or performance of activities, neglecting medical care, strong negative feelings in general, feeling controlled by diabetes, isolation, or feeling alone. Unaddressed feelings of burnout can and often does lead to self-destructive behaviors. (For example, pretending you don’t have diabetes and eating whatever you want and not taking your insulin or checking your sugar). 

When was the last time that your endocrinologist or your PCP asked you how you were doing? How you are handling things? Have any of them ever taken the time to check in with your emotional wellbeing and the effects of this disease on your mental state? Unless of course you were to breakdown and start crying about how stressed out and frustrated you are by it all. Maybe then they might check in, LOL.  So if they don’t ask us how we are feeling and coping, how will they ever be able to ascertain that we are feeling burned out? Yep, they won’t. 

So where does this leave us? How are we ever going to get through these feelings of being burned out by diabetes? From all of the research I have done, one thing seems to be the most important for overcoming feelings of being burned out and that is to acknowledge the feelings you are experiencing and give yourself permission to feel them. Having someone you trust that you can share how you feel with is also very helpful. Someone who can be your “ventee”, your go-to listener so you can get all the bad feelings and the frustration out of you. In times of severe burn out you may also need to start saying no to people and start asking for help for simple tasks of life (doing the dishes and laundry and so on).  It is also helpful to think about what you can and what you can not change. Love yourself, remember we all make mistakes, and even if you don’t make mistakes there is no perfection in the world of Diabetes. 

Remember that you are not alone. There are plenty of groups out there that offer support and I strongly recommend you find one that you like. Finding others who suffer from type 1 has helped me tremendously throughout the years to understand that how I feel is normal. We all go through good times and bad times with this disease and it is ok to feel frustrated and angry. It is even ok to feel burned out from time to time. Just give yourself a break and take a deep breath and go do something to distract yourself. Find your person to talk to and when you are able to get back on it, then do it. Giving yourself a break from time to time is actually going to help you in the long run. Sometimes simply going outside or changing your focus to your family or a hobby is a miracle worker. Making sure you are able to do this is the tricky part. Remember what I said above, give yourself a break and let yourself have a bad day. Accept that you will not always be great but if you can find a way to do pretty good most days, you will be ok!

When Life Becomes Too Busy......

Have you ever had a period in your life where you feel like you can barely make it through another week with things the way they are? A time where you keep moving forward one day after the next but you know that you are only going through the motions and life seems to be passing you by? You do the bare minimum to keep yourself moving but you are so tired and so exhausted from life that it is nearly impossible to put forth much effort into your health and well-being? Well, this has been my life since June. And I am realizing more and more each day that I can’t keep living like this. 

I took a new job last October, thinking it would be the answer to all my prayers. It had a decent schedule and great benefits that would allow me and my kids to be more self-sufficient. As a single mom, I felt like this would give us more stability and I would not need to count on anyone else for anything. I loved my old job, my old boss was awesome but I really was tired of paying through the nose for insurance I had found on the marketplace that had a high deductible and was costly each month. Although the schedule he gave me was good, I felt unsettled and this job just came up in my email one day so I applied not really thinking much about it. Well, I went for the interview and then received an offer and it was crazy awesome. 

I made the change and was excited. This hospital seemed like it would be a great place to work and I had always dreamed of working as a pediatric endocrinology nurse practitioner. It seemed like everything was falling into place. Sadly once I met the doctor I would be working with, it all changed quickly. She was a new graduate, who just finished her fellowship and she was very rigid in the way she wanted things done. She for some reason did not like me. I tried to learn her ways and to do what she wanted but nothing I did was good enough. After 2 months of torture, I finally spoke up and said I could not work like that. My blood sugars were high from the stress, I was having basically daily panic attacks and could not eat or sleep. Once I spoke up, the administrators quickly stepped in and removed me from her clinic. 

I was given a few weeks off and was offered a job rotating through the other clinics in Orlando. I was thankful that I still had a job.    And looked forward to working with the main group of doctors, but knew Orlando is a far drive from Tampa. To help with the drive I was told I would only have to work 4 days a week. I started looking at possibly moving to the Orlando area and even looked at houses, but then COVID-19 hit and things quickly changed. 

I was able to work from home, which was perfect because my kids were now home and doing virtual school until the end of the year. Life was amazing. I was able to exercise every day, we biked 6 miles a night and played basketball at lunch each day. We were able to eat all of our meals together and I got a lot of things done around the house. We purged and donated so much stuff. I was also able to get small home improvement projects completed. I absolutely loved being at home. I loved having time with my kids and still being able to work. Not having to spend time in the car driving was such an amazing change. I never realized how much time I wasted driving to and from the office. I mean it was 1-2 hours a day. But of course, virtual medicine was not going to be a permanent change, and eventually, I had to go back to working in Orlando. 

As quickly as things changed forcing me to work from home they went back to normal just as quickly. The hospital was losing money by doing things virtually and a lot of visits had been canceled and needed to be rescheduled. Well, fast forward 4 months down the road and here I am today. Driving back and forth to Orlando and hating it. The traffic is now back to normal and I no longer have a 4 day work week. It has honestly become unbearable. I am waking up at 5 am in order to drive 2 hours to be at work by 8. I don’t get home till 6-7 pm or later each night. I am so tired by Wednesday night that I dread the last 2 days of the week. I am getting no exercise. I am forgetting blouses and I am beyond stressed. I hate driving in general and driving 4 hours a day in addition to working a full day sucks. I feel like I have no energy to focus on my diabetes or my kids. I feel like a terrible mom, I come home and don’t want to do anything. This is not the life I want. I really and truly need a change now!! My diabetes is suffering and I am used to being able to have the time to take care of myself. 

I know that I need to pay attention to my sugars and that I need to stay on top of my diabetes. I need to stop stress eating and gorging myself on sweets when I feel super stressed. I know that I should be thankful that I have a job and I have insurance, but I want to run away from my life. I want to sell everything I own and buy land in the mountains to build a house and live off the land and be with my kids. I want a job that allows me to stay home and still pay the bills, but I also want fewer bills to have to pay. I want to have time to keep my diabetes at the best level it can be. I want to be healthy and happy. Stress makes sugars high. Lack of exercise makes sugars high. Eating bad sugary foods makes sugars high. I don’t want to be high, I hate how I feel when I am running high. I am already irritable because of the stress and adding into the mix high sugars, I don’t even like being around myself. 

So, how can any of us keep our diabetes under control when life often gets in the way? I hear from patients all of the time that they can’t do this and can’t do that.  And because of work or family or something else, their sugars are running higher. I wonder if there is a way we can remember to put our health first? Isn’t there a way to make sure we are taking care of ourselves so we can be the best version of ourselves possible? Honestly don’t you feel more productive and more helpful when you feel good? I know I do. So how do we prioritize ourselves when life is pushing us down? Is it possible to stand up for our selves and tell those around us at home and at work, that we need to be able to take care of us? I think it should be, so what do you all think?

"The Gift of Imperfection"

I recently started reading this book by Brene Brown called “The Gifts of Imperfection” and it is changing my life. She states that we all need to “let go of who we think we are supposed to be and embrace who we truly are”. I love that thought. We all have these voices constantly telling us who we are supposed to be and what we are supposed to do and say and think. The world today can be smothering if you let it be. We have so much pressure in our society to be and do the most we can in all areas. It seems like no matter how much I do, I always feel like I am falling short. I feel like I can always do more or should be doing more. With my kids or at work. It seems like there is never enough of me to go around. Trying to find that work-life balance has been extremely challenging for me. 

I have noticed in the years since I was little, that there has been a very noticeable shift in family/ home and work life. Not that I am super old, but when I was little my mom stayed home with us. My dad worked 2 jobs and my mom did jobs from home to help make ends meet. We were by no means wealthy, but we always had what we needed, and sometimes what we wanted. My mom cooked almost every night and we ate together as a family. We also were able to walk home from school for lunch a lot of the time. It was a nice life. I never truly felt like my mom was stressed and short-tempered like I often am. My dad, on the other hand, did tend to be a bit more short-tempered and he did not adjust well to change. We all worked together and we all had chores and life was to me, simple. I was active and played sports. I had early morning Seminary for my church and had practice for 3 hours a night after school for hockey than basketball then track (depending on the time of year). I went home and did homework and was in bed by 10 so I could be up at 5 am. I can’t remember feeling super stressed or anything, even though my schedule seemed packed. And of course, as a teen, my blood sugars were not always stellar. I was a typical teenager who at times did not check my sugar and ate what I wanted. 

  Fast forward to now. I am a single mother of 2 kids (11 and 14). I work full time (at the moment about 2 hours from home) and then come home and make dinner and make sure the kids have done their homework and have done their chores. I have dishes and laundry and of course, there are events and different things that they are involved in. At this time I am super stressed. Spending 4 hours a day in the car, getting up at 5 am and then working till 4 and driving home, often not getting home till 6-7 pm. By the time we make and eat dinner and then clean up, I am exhausted. We try to do something together as a family, either watching a show or playing a game. Then kids head to the showers while I throw in some laundry or pick out my clothes for the next day or work on packing lunches. We read our scripture together as a family and say a prayer and we are usually in bed between 9-10 pm. I am almost always up until 10, if not 10:30 doing other things (paying bills or reading or cleaning). I feel like by the time I get home I am so drained that I can’t be the mom I want to be. I have no desire to exercise. I often want to just be left alone, but I know my kids need me, they need my attention. 

Life is exhausting and I often feel like I am not here enough for my kids. I resent my job because, although I know it is necessary to pay the bills for our home, it keeps me away from my kids. I am often tired and grumpy when I get home and this book is helping me to understand what my priorities are. I am learning that it is ok for me to have floors that are only swept and mopped once a week. And bathrooms that get cleaned on the weekends. I often have litter flung about in my bathroom from the kitties litter box, but it is what it is. My counters are often cluttered during the week. My kids may not agree, but I have learned that they can help out. I am imperfect. There are days when I am grumpy and my sugars are high and I want to be left alone. Some days I want to run away to a cabin in the woods and never see another human being again. But, I am ok just as I am. I am on a journey, and I will trip and fall many times. I will get back up each time I fall and try again. I keep on working at trying to be a great person and some days I feel like I am, while other days I feel like a total failure. I am learning, however, that I will only truly fail when I give up and stop trying. One day at a time. 

My diabetes is definitely imperfect. This weekend has been a bad weekend. I was high all day yesterday. It seemed like no matter how much I kept trying to correct my sugar, I could not get it down to normal. Even when I woke up this morning I was high. I changed my site to see if that would help and it did. It eventually came down, like it always does (usually not in the amount of time I would like it to).Then I went high again after breakfast this morning. It came down and then by mid-afternoon I crashed and was down in the 40’s. I, of course, overcorrected the low, I was starving and it was around lunch, but it wouldn't let me bolus for lunch until the number came up, and then I forgot until I was already 170 and climbing. Shortly after bolusing I hit 200 again.  I really hate yo-yo sugars. It makes me mad at myself because I know better. I know how to keep my sugars fairly well controlled and days like this make me feel like a diabetes failure. I know in my head I am not a failure, but days like these make me feel incompetent. I mean I am a trained professional, I should be able to keep myself from yo-yoing!

After reading this book, I am starting to realize that first and foremost I need to love Myself and be ok with the fact that at times I am not perfect. Even as an educated, diabetes professional, I am still not perfect. There are days when I do everything right and yet my sugars are crazy. Other days I don’t focus much on my diabetes,  but my numbers are good. Just like in all areas of my life, my diabetes is not and never will be perfectly in sync. We all need to learn that it is ok to make mistakes. It is ok to have sugars that at times are crazy. It is ok to not be a perfect mom. It is ok to have a bad day to feel frustrated and to be worried that I am not enough. When these days happen the most important thing for me to know and to do is to stop and take a deep breath, love myself, and remember that I am doing my best each day. It is important to know that my best is always enough, even if it’s not perfect. I am trying, I am learning as I go and I am improving, some days more than others. I can do this and so can you.

COVID-19

As I previously posted, the lovely Coronavirus has definitely changed life as we know it. We can’t leave our homes without first making up (at least I hope that is what you are all doing).  Of all the studies I have read, it seems that the risk of developing COVID is not higher for us diabetics, however, the seriousness of the infection could be worse for us than someone without a chronic illness. I have had a lot of patients and parents ask me, should my kid go back to school? Should I go back to work? Honestly, this is something you need to dig deep and answer for yourself. 

My kids are now 11 and 14, one started middle school this year and the other started high school. Am I worried that they will get sick? Not really. Am I worried that they will perhaps come in contact with someone who is sick and pass it along to me, a little bit? But after a lot of reading and time and discussions, we opted to go back in person. My kids did not thrive in the online world. I loved the fact that we were all home and we could spend more time together, but I am in the medical field and staying home is not an option for me. They have missed their friends so much and missed socializing. My daughter has a phone and talks to her friends a lot. My son not so much. He seems to have suffered more with the isolation then she has. So in-person school it was. 

Here we are now 3 weeks in and so far so good. Our schools seem very well organized. Kids must wear masks. They are assigned seats in each class and their seats are recorded. They have PE and although they can’t go into the locker room and change, my daughter has found a way to quickly change in the bathroom. They don’t have lockers (fear that kids will congregate in the halls has led to the school forbidding the rental of lockers for now), so they have to carry their stuff each day. But they are so happy. They are more active (each averaging about 10,000 steps a day compared to their 2,000 steps a day when they were doing virtual school. 

I firmly believe that isolation is not good for any of us for long periods of time. I don't love wearing a mask all day but I do it because I have to. I have no personal feelings of “my rights are infringed upon” and all this other stuff I hear. This virus is not a joke. And yes it is much more contagious than other illnesses. It seems to pass more easily from person to person. I hear people talk about herd immunity. Part of me wishes we could all just get exposed at once and may the strong survive, but that won’t eradicate it. You can be reinfected. Will life ever go back to normal? Will we ever be able to go back to how things were? I honestly do not think so. 

I have still not gone to eat in a restaurant, and I don’t miss it. I have picked food up and taken it home. I have no desire to go to a movie again, to be honest. I am happier this summer then I have been because we have spent more time outside, enjoying nature. Swimming and going to the beach. I forgot how lucky we are to have so many beaches nearby. Do I feel safe going for a bike ride or swimming in a pool? Yes, I do. I would much rather be outside than inside. I would rather be in a small group then a huge gathering. I miss going to church and I miss having small gatherings, but this whole coronavirus outbreak has made me realize what I truly treasure. 

My family means more to me than anything else in the world. I am happy they are safe and they are healthy. I wish I could protect them from the world, from ever feeling any pain or sadness, but I know that I can’t. They will have to go through trials at some point in their life, as I have gone through trials. I know that them going back to school will give them a sense of normalcy in this world of abnormal. We can’t go anywhere without a mask. It’s weird and different for everyone to see people wearing masks everywhere. It’s weird for us all that we have had to change the way we do things and we have had to be more conscious about what we choose to do. They have been sedentary and they have been cooped up and I can see the change in them, in their personalities and their attitudes. I do not like it, they need to regain some sense of normal life, and going to school in person is a beginning. It is helping them to be kids again. 

So what do you all think? Are you sending your kids or keeping them home? Are you worried? Are you afraid they will get you sick? I can’t stress enough to my kids the importance of good hand washing and of not touching your face. I truly believe if they are diligent in doing this, we will all be ok. 

Diabetes is Not Easy

Life with diabetes is never a smooth and easy ride. While I am very thankful that I have all this technology and all of these devices that I am able to use to help me gain better control over my disease, it takes a lot of work to do so. Not only does it take a lot of work, but it also takes knowledge and it takes constant effort. Type 1 diabetes is incurable. That is right, there is no cure. There is no magic pill to make it all go away. There is no way to grow back those cells that the immune system mistakenly destroyed. Type 1 diabetes is an autoimmune disease. My immune system destroyed the cells that make insulin. Without insulin, death is inevitable. So, I am completely and utterly dependent on insulin to stay alive. This knowledge is actually terrifying to me. Imagine knowing if you can’t afford or can’t find insulin, you are dead in a few days. (Told you it is terrifying). No pill can keep us alive. Nothing but insulin will do. I am so grateful for Dr. Frederick Banting or Toronto University who discovered that insulin could be used to treat diabetes. Thanks to his work and the work of many scientists before him, we have a way to manage this disease. 

Diabetes is very much like a science experiment, as one of my memes on the homepage shows. You honestly never know what your sugars will be from one day to the next. The timing of insulin, the hormones produced by the body, the number of calories used by the person, the timing of when the food is broken down and digested and converted to sugars. All of these things affect your sugar. I have said before, even if I ate the same thing 5 days in a row, my sugars in the 2 hour postprandial time could be very different. One day I may be high, one day I may be low, 3 days I may be normal. But it could also be high, low, normal, high, normal. You honestly just don’t know. 

For someone who is a control freak or someone who strives for perfection, this can be frustrating and irritating. (Not that I am a perfectionist…..lol). I know that diabetes can be daunting and my experience in dealing with patients shows me that many times the frustration gets the better of them. They feel like no matter what they do their numbers go up and down and so they figure why bother trying? I understand this, luckily for me, I am as I said a perfectionist and so I keep trying every day to make my CGM line flat and beautiful. I don’t get discouraged by the ups and downs most days (not going to lie some days it is harder to not be upset). Instead I look at the data provided by my CGM and I think ok what did I do today that was different? I know for example that pretty much every morning I am going to hit 170-180 after breakfast, higher then I want, but if I can keep it under 200 I am happy. I set my alarm at 170 so it alerts me when it goes up and I can try my best to make sure I don’t cross that 200 line. Most of the time the rest of the day I do ok with meals. I am more insulin resistant in the morning and I know I need to bolus before I eat at breakfast but life and timing get in the way. Mornings are a mad rush for me so I settle on staying under 200 and I am ok with that. 

I think as diabetics we all need to study our days. Honestly let's look at what we are doing and troubleshoot in a way that works for your life. Find a way to keep your sugars in as good of control as you can by putting forth honest effort. Don’t use the excuse that I am so tired of hearing, “my diabetes is different”. Honestly, my friends, everyone’s diabetes is different. That is the point I am trying to make, find out what works for you and your diabetes. Honestly people, the term “brittle diabetic”, is in my opinion simply non- compliance. Your sugars are erratic because of your behavior. If you are honest with yourself, you will know I am right. Eating 3 donuts for breakfast will have serious consequences of your sugars. Over blousing to correct the high from those 3 donuts, will cause a low which will then send you into panic mode, because who likes to feel low? (Hint nobody). And then you overeat and go high from panic eating to fix the low and the cycle starts all over again. This up and down cycle always has a beginning that if you take the time to find it, you can correct it. 

Diabetes does not have to run or ruin your life. Diabetes does suck for us all but I know if I can do this, if I can live a normal life and I can deal with the ups and downs that at times I can’t explain, so can you! Don’t blame yourself for making mistakes from time to time, we all do. Don’t beat yourself up for having a bad day. Simply take a breath, try to find out why you are having a bad day, and do what you can to make it better. Stop, breathe, and know you are not alone. 

Quarantining with Diabetes

Lately life has been a giant chaotic crazy mess. I still can’t believe we have been shut down. Like everything seems to have come to a standstill. We are all advised to stay home and stay safe. We are told to only go out to get necessities. Toilet paper has become one of the most sought after items in the world. Where exactly are we living? Is this like the prehistoric days of Bedrock? My kids left school on March 13th for Spring break and here were are months later and they have never gone back. We are now all at home in our make shift offices and “classrooms”. It is eerily quiet on the roads, if you do go out. I feel like we have entered an apocalyptic era. I know this won’t last forever, and thank Heavens Amazon still delivers as do my pharmacies. I am able to get my diabetes supplies that I need to survive. It has made me think a lot though about what will happen if and when the time comes when I can’t still get them.

I have been made fun of by many people around me for “hoarding items”. I grew up with a father who would bargain shop and double and triple coupon, buying massive quantities of foods when they were on sale. We had boxes of cereal running all across the tops of you cabinets when I was growing up. I guess I sort of take after him. I have 2 refrigerators plus an extra chest freezer and a pantry that is lets just say large. One thing is for sure, we won’t run out of food any time soon. And luckily for me, when this all started we had just planted a ton of seeds in our little garden and we are already seeing tomatoes on 2 of them. So I don’t worry about food much. And as for my medications, well I have been brought up in a way that I order as soon as I am able to get my next 3 month supply and by doing so, I have a nice stash of insulin that will last me at least a year. I worry about those patients and friends I have seen and heard who wait til they run out of insulin to call for a refill. Of those that are almost out and calling frantically begging for a refill cause they have only 1-2 days left. I am grateful that this is not how I do my diabetes.

I think it would be safe to say that most of us who have type 1 diabetes and are completely reliant on insulin for survival, have learned to stretch things out at times. Like you are on vacation and you realize you only brought enough insulin to refill your pump 1 more time. Or your sight comes out and you don’t have a back up one on you. Now what? Of course you forgot to carry around with you that back up pen we are all told to carry at all times. In theory this is a great plan but in reality, well, it’s Florida and it is hot and I can’t afford to throw away pen after pen after it has been in my purse for 30 days. I have had time when I have gone into panic mode. So now I have learned to keep syringes hidden in my car and in my purse and in my backpack. Worst case scenario, you stick the needle in the pump and draw some insulin out right?

Having diabetes is stressful some days. Days when you forget something you need. Days when you get where you are going and realize you don’t have your meter or you strips or you insulin. The pen you brought is empty. Or your site comes out. I am sure we have all had days like this. Where we feel like the biggest failure in the world because as our doctors tell us “you should have…….”. Funny how often the doctors forget that NOBODY IS PERFECT!!!! I mean is there one person out there who has never made a mistake? Is there anyone who has never forgotten to bolus for a meal or forgotten to check a sugar before eating that snack? I feel like I need to make this announcement to those who are not aware yet, “DIABETES IS HARD PEOPLE”. Go ahead doctors, I would love to see you do diabetes better then me. I would love you to show me the “perfect diabetic”.

Trust me I am a total type A personality. I strive for perfection. I hate making mistakes. I hate messing up. I get angry at myself when I have a blood sugar that I know would have been better if I had only…….. (fill in the blank). There are other days where I do everything right and even then my sugars are so far from perfect it drives me nearly insane. Diabetes is almost like a curse to those of us who are perfectionists. Those of us who try so hard to do everything right. With diabetes even if you do everything right, you will have days where it all goes wrong.

Now back to the wonderful world of quarantine and the way I have been feeling lately. Life in quarantine is weird. I mean to me it seems like everything diabetic should be rocking their sugars right now. Seriously, what else do we have to do with our time, LOL? We are all being forced to slow down and see what truly is important. Many of us are out of jobs (temporarily or for some permanently). Shopping for food is more difficult. We can’t go like anywhere. Even our doctors offices are closing doors. We are being forced to do pretty much everything virtually now. For me this is not bad, luckily my CGM is virtual anyway and if I needed help I could call my MD and upload my DEXCOM and have them review my sugars and tell me what to do. For me I am taking this forced “slowed down” time to get out there an exercise. My kids have no activities and my clubs or sports. We can’t even go to church. I am loving the fact that every night after dinner we go for a bike ride together, 6 miles each day! I love that we get to spend the whole day together. We are playing basketball at lunch. We are playing card games and board games. We are talking and we are just together. I have to admit, I kind of love it. I am cooking more and we are eating better (because I am cooking more).

Luckily my job is allowing me to still work from home. I am learning how to do medicine via “telehealth”. Secretly I love it and want this to last a lot longer. This whole forced slowing down has shown me that my life is really not what I want it to be. This extra time with my kids and the extra time I now have for me is what I have been missing for a long time. I really think quarantine will do me good permanently by showing me how much I should be doing for myself that I have not been doing. So everyone, I ask you, how are you handling/adjusting to your lives in quarantine? Are you seeing what I see? Are you managing your diabetes better now that you have the time to do it?

Happy Holidays

The holidays are always a tricky time for most of us. There is stress, there is food and more food. Pretty much from Halloween until New Years, it seems our lives are centered around food and parties and celebrations. As someone who has diabetes this can be a tricky time of the year. I have even seen patients whose A1C’s increase by about 1-2% during this time each year and they always have the same thing to say about it, “it’s the holidays, I will get back on track in another few weeks”. To me that is sad. I mean why do the holidays need to ruin us? Yes I know food is great. We all have a love/ hate relationship with food. We love it cause it’s yummy, but hate it cause it makes us fat, makes our sugars go high and can make us have bad feelings about ourselves based on our lack of will power. But food is a necessary evil. I mean we can’t live on water alone. We need to put fuel in our tanks to be able to function and carry out our daily lives. So how can we learn to find a way to keep our sugars under control while we celebrate? How can we enjoy our foods but not in excess? I don’t think this is a question simply for people with diabetes, but rather one that needs to be addressed by everyone in this country. I think maybe if we can change the way we see food and stop having it be a love/hate relationship with it, our lives will change for the better. Has there ever been a truly successful relationship based on a love/hate scenario? Food should not be an enemy, it should be something we take joy in. Let us make this holiday season one where we find a way to live in peace and harmony with the foods around us. Let us find the inner willpower to celebrate without causing us actual harm. Take the day and think about and write about how you view food in your life and see if there is one thing you can do to change that for the better. Maybe you need to stop using food as a reward? Maybe you should stop using it as a punishment? Maybe you simply need to treat your food with love, after all it is keeping you alive! This holiday season, find a way to make food your friend and not your enemy! I know we each have the power within us to make one change to improve your relationship with food!

And The Doctor Says......

The other day I watched a doctor tell her patient that he needed to use all of the possible different pump sites to prevent lipodystrophy. The patient said he did not use his legs because it hurt him when he had tried to use the legs before. She proceeded to try to use a fear tactic about how awful scar tissue can be. It was so hard for me to stay quiet. I mean what exactly is the point in telling someone they need to do something when they are telling you they are not going to do? I mean is that helping anyway? Honestly, I don't use my legs and I agree it hurts in my legs too. It annoys me when someone who has no idea how this all feels tells me what they read in a book! Do you have to have a pump connected to you to stay alive alllllll the time? Do you have these pieces stuck in your body? Then maybe you should listen to me, as a patient, when I say I don't like it in a certain place. Why would I do something that will hurt me constantly for 3 days? Nothing annoys me more than a physician who thinks they know it all because they read this or read that. You know what, books are not reality. Crazy right? We are all different people. One man or woman’s favorite pump site is another's no way am I using that again site. We are all different people. We all want and like different things. So Dr. Know It All, listen to your patient next time instead of trying to force your opinion down his throat!! And my fellow patients, we need to all stand up for what we need and tell our doctors how we feel. There are some providers out there who actually will listen to what we have to say and who might learn a thing or two from us.

34th Diaversary

Today marks my 34th diaversary. 34 years ago today I was in a coma in the hospital and my parents were told that I had type 1 diabetes. It has been a long road and a challenging road at times. Today I am 43 and still living with Type 1 diabetes. Today my highest sugar was 214 and my lowest was 62. My most recent A1C is 6.3. I, fortunately, have no complications that I know of. I am amazed at how far we have come. As a child, I had to do multiple shots every day and poke my little fingers a minimum of 4x a day. As I grew up, I happily received a pump and as the years have gone on the technology keeps getting better. Now we have sensors and hybrid closed-loop systems. This is life with diabetes, my sugars go Up and down and all around, every single day. I sometimes feel like I have more electronic devices on me than a robot, but, I am alive. I have 2 amazing and wonderful children who I love more than anything. I am thankful today more than ever that I came out of that coma and have lived my life stronger and more intentional as a result of this disease. To all my friends and family who know how trying T1D can be, know that diabetes doesn’t own you! The future is bright for us all
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This is my life 24 hours at a time

It's Been Awhile......

Well, over the last few months life has surely gotten in the way. I have found myself struggling once again to find that balance that seems impossible to achieve in this world. A balance between health and work and family. Day after day I see patients come in to the office and hear of their struggles to get fit or to stay fit. Diets are hard to stick with as are exercise regiments. It seems to me that everyone is feeling overworked and under-cared for. It seems like the more and more we pile on our plates the less time we have for ourselves. But if you don’t care of you, then who will? I mean we all need to take control of our own medical and health dont we? There will come a day when someone will be left to make those decisions for us, but right now, these are our decisions and this is our life (the only one we will have). It is so easy to get lost in the thick of thin things. The world as it is today seems to be so much more focused on having things and on being things and not on happiness or health. I mean there are surely healthy things all around us, ads for gyms and diets and special foods that will solve all of your wiggles and jiggles. There are so many aps and websites to help us “get fit” and to “be healthy”. But have you ever stopped and really thought about it? What can make us healthy? I mean I am not a dietitian but I know that eating an apple is better then a bag of chips. I know yogurt is better then a piece of cake. So why is it so hard to lose weight and to stay on a diet that works? Lets face it diet is the whole issue. The word diet means “a special course of food to which a person restricts themselves, either to lose weight or for medical reasons. So restricting yourself in my opinion is always going to result if failure isn’t it? How do we find the will power to take the harder road? How can we be diligent enough to put our health first when the world is pulling us in different directions? How can we tell our boss we need time to eat and time to go to the doctor? How can we tell our families we need time to exercise and time to cook and eat healthy foods? How do we put our health first and make ourselves a priority in this crazy world? Although I may not know the answer to this question right now, I do know that it is necessary for us all to find a way to put our health first and to be more proactive in our healthcare. I ask that everyone stops and considers what they can do to make their life and their health more of a priority starting today. Find your own balance, give a little but also take a little bit for yourself!