Why Me?

Have you ever felt sorry for yourself and asked why me? Why did I get diabetes? Why do I have to do this? What did I ever do to deserve this?” I am sure at some point in all of our lives, we have had a moment where we asked one or all of these questions. Have you ever really thought about it though? I mean what do you think? Do you think you are being punished? Do you wonder if it is a test from God? Do you blame your parents or grandparents or whoever else has it in your family? Do you simply blame it on bad luck or bad genes?

I know throughout my life, I have had all of these thoughts at one time or another. I have felt sorry for myself and thought this is not fair. I did not do anything wrong to deserve this. I never ate too much candy and I was not overweight or lazy. I have 4 brothers and they are all fine why did I get stuck with this?

Honestly, I don’t know that we will ever know the answer to these questions. I mean medically speaking it has a genetic component to it, but the exact causes remain unknown. Scientists theorize various viruses cause an autoimmune response in some people, but the exact reason for that response in some and not others remains unknown.

Do I think we are being punished? Definitely not. I do believe however, that God will not give us more then we can handle. And one day we will know the reason, we just need to be patient and to do the best we can to deal with it each day. We need to find a way to embrace our diabetes rather than hate it. In my experience, doing so makes life a heck of a lot easier. Holding onto hate just attracts negative energy into your life and I don’t think anyone wants to do that.

I believe that instead of asking “why me”, we should instead turn our focus towards a different way of thinking, one that is more positive. Instead of playing the victim play the superhero. Take pride in the fact that yes, you have diabetes but you are rocking it! If something doesn’t work, try to think” ok, I can do better next time”. Instead of thinking “Ugh, I suck at this”. We all learn more by failing and then trying something new right? I mean Thomas Edison did not invent electricity in one try, he had multiple failed attempts before he succeeded at mastering it. And who knows, maybe one day we can each discover something about diabetes the doctors don’t even know. We may come up with the next breakthrough needed to find a cure.

We can’t escape diabetes, so why don’t we instead try to figure it out. Take each day and try try try to find a way to live your life with your diabetes. To still live a full and as normal of a life as everyone else. Honestly everyone has something they are dealing with, we just may not be able to see it. So don’t let your disease run your life. Find a way to make it work in your life, in whatever way works for you.